I saw her and we talked about the past and those saltish things started welling up again and i feel more drained than ever. But i'm glad i have someone who's not a friend that i can talk to because you don't want to be a burden to your friends and it is sometimes nice to talk to someone who will never ever be your friend.

I read part of a book on the table which quoted, 'in solitude, where we are least alone' and understand it so well.